{"id":116,"date":"2009-08-23T02:18:31","date_gmt":"2009-08-22T15:18:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/christopherowen.id.au\/blog\/?p=116"},"modified":"2009-08-23T02:18:31","modified_gmt":"2009-08-22T15:18:31","slug":"insoporia","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/christopherowen.au\/blog\/2009\/08\/23\/insoporia\/","title":{"rendered":"Insoporia"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>And the sleep won&#8217;t come,<br \/>\nthe time ticks a pattern in my head,<br \/>\na memory of you enters and fades,<br \/>\na lost time, more potent than the time I&#8217;m losing now.<\/p>\n<p>If I could choose, if I truly had free will,<br \/>\nI&#8217;d run, I&#8217;d break out, I&#8217;d be unbonded, free.<br \/>\nbut while I&#8217;m here in this state, a listless nowhere,<br \/>\nI can&#8217;t, I won&#8217;t, I&#8217;ll never be.<\/p>\n<p>and even now, when I feel almost alive, I&#8217;ll falter<br \/>\nsearch for words that won&#8217;t come, that will never say what I want to say<br \/>\nI&#8217;ll think that at the very least, I&#8217;ve created something<br \/>\nbut for what purpose? In the end, I&#8217;ll hate them, hate it, loathe it all the same.<\/p>\n<p>And the sleep still won&#8217;t come, but maybe I always am.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Fear and self-loathing in Sydney.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"activitypub_content_warning":"","activitypub_content_visibility":"","activitypub_max_image_attachments":4,"activitypub_interaction_policy_quote":"","activitypub_status":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[13,16],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-116","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-life","category-personal"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/christopherowen.au\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/116","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/christopherowen.au\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/christopherowen.au\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/christopherowen.au\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/christopherowen.au\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=116"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/christopherowen.au\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/116\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/christopherowen.au\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=116"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/christopherowen.au\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=116"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/christopherowen.au\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=116"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}